Saturday, April 3, 2010


He is jelous for me Loves like a hurrican I am a tree
Bending benethe the weight of his wind and mecry
When all of a sudden am unaware of these afflection eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are And how great Your affections are for me

And oh. How He loves us so
Oh how He loves us
How he loves us so

We are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean were all sinking
And heaven meets earth like a beautiful Kiss
Any my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I dont have time to maintain there regrets when I think about the way..

He love us
Oh How He loves us
Oh how He loves us
How He love us so
Yeah He loves us
Oh how He loves us
Oh how He loves us
How he loves us so

This Song is the best. I Love it. The true meaning of Easter!!! The way HE LOVED US SO MUCH HE DIED TO SAVE US!!!

Thank you Jesus!!!! I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


I am 20 years old. Still in High School. Loveing God. And still not getting up before 1:30 or so.

Nothing much has changed. I have (I am trying to) given my life and my will and Put it in Gods hands. I still like"Mark" but i have let it go. Getting lost in God is where i wanna be before i even thing of a relationship with anyone. Me and him talked a lil last night and i liked it. But I wasnt all giddy about it lol...i was wile we were talking but i didnt make a huge deal about it. I usually do lol.

Things are going ok in my life. Putting God in it is the most inportant thing!!!

Well gotta get some things done

Victoria M. love with Jesus

Friday, August 14, 2009

(1) 08/14/09 Talking to God.

I just woke up about an hour ago. But I neded to type this now before it left my mind.

Talking to God when you first wake up is the PERFECT START for the day. I feel so much better today than I have been feeling the whole week. It is awesome.


It is amazing what prayer can do!!!!!


Thursday, August 13, 2009


Idk what to say about today. Lazy.....Hurtful...Angry.....LAZY......unclean needing shower lol. I REALLY needed a shower and didn't get to get one till about 6:30 I think lol.

I got mad about somethings....ALOT of things. I realized that I get mad at my sister but of things (I think) she gets away with and (I feel) I get/got in trouble for. Like the scraps thing. I always got yelled at if it wasn't done. Tiffany doesn't. I am usually the one telling her to do it and I get yelled at for telling her to do it. Tiffany will fuss and yell at me when I ask her to do her job and there for I get yelled at. I know I KNOW she does it on purpose. I know she will fuss just so i will get in trouble. That is cuz she knows it will work.

She don't like doing her job. Neither do I but I try to make myself do it. I have to tell her to do hers because I WILL NOT DO IT FOR HER!!!!!!!! If I do it for her one time she will expect it every time.

I blame her for alot of my problems. And I shouldn't!!!! I know I don't need to blame her but I do. I have many issues about that kinda stuff. I guess it is just that sibling rivalry thing lol. either needs to stop!! I love my sister. I LOVE MY SISTER!!! But with everything going on, Anger issues, ect. I just cant stand her sometimes.

God help me with my anger issues!!!!

Other that all the anger and such, I started thinking about....lets call him Mark.....again and i realized a few things. God's Will vs. my will. Idk what his is and I know what mine is. Sometimes lol. I like "Mark" alot.....ALOT.....WAY TO MUCH!!! lol.

He don't like me tho. Mark is in the same position I am in. the only people who like him are the people he don't like at all. (that is how I feel anyway...idk if it is fact) The only guys that have actually liked me are guy I DON'T like. This one dude idk why he likes me but he has liked me for awhile and I have told him (nicely) that I don't like him and he still tries to get me to like him BUT I DON'T!!!! He still tries to ask me out....or say something like...when are you going to let the man of your dreams take you out....or something like...when me and you get together...or stuff like that. I told him i only liked him as a friend. I told him one time when I was going through some thing that I loved him. He helped me out when I thought no one else was there. He was a good friend and that is all I want!!!

I did like him at one time.....but I stopped when I felt like all he was doing was lying to me. Plus he is sort of like my sister. ( a whole new mess right there )

Well all I need to end this right here and go and clean the kitchen!! Been a lazy day. I didnt get up untill about 4:30pm.

God help me to understand your will. Help me to know what I am supposed to do. Helpme to learn. Help me to learn the differance between your will and mine.

Help me to know your voice~!~ Amen


Wednesday, August 12, 2009


Today I didn't get out of bed untill.....4:30pm.......yah me

Church was pretty good tonight. It was about making choices. Like choices to get out of ironic. lol.

How about that? Hmm.....Sometimes it is hard to make that choice. But the choice I can make is whether or not I want to service God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. AND I DO!!!!

But how exactly do I do that?

Help me Lord to understand/learn the things I NEED to do. Help me Lord to realize when I do wrong. Help me Lord.......just help me....Amen

Victoria M. Clouse


Nothing much to say about today. Lazy pretty much sums it up!

Monday, August 10, 2009

08/10/ yuck lol

Today is the day I really decided to do my school work. To GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH!!!!

I have decided to do it many days before.....but today is the day IT WILL BE DONE!!!

Math will be hard to finish. But I need to learn it cuz it is in EVERYTHING we do. EVERYTHING!!! Add, subtract, divide, and multiply I know how to do. But all the percentages and such like it.....I get stuck on trying to figure it out.

I love and hate math. Somethings I can do in my head easily, but otherthings I will sit there for an hour trying to figure it out.

I CAN DO IT!!!! I know I can. It will just take some time to get it done RIGHT!!

School........YUCKY!!! Money.......YAH!!! lol School = diploma....Diploma = job.....Job= money

School.....YEA!!!! HAHA This is going to be fun lol.

I made me a schedule today for getting up and school and other things. I am going to make it fun by having Art and Music "classes".

Art is where I will stop and draw or read for about 30 Min's - 1 hour.

Music is where I will practice my guitar or listen to music for about 1 hour.

I need to make a PE class lol......maybe it will get me losing some weight lol.

I am also going to make it to where if I don't do my work I wont have my "classes".
Fun!!! lol

I cant wait till tomorrow cus that is when I will start it lol!!